I don’t know what I would do with myself if I had never begun painting. This is only a sampling of what I have painted. I go through periods, I suppose we all do, where I don’t feel like doing ANYTHING. It’s like a black hole. I don’t want to see people. I don’t want to go anywhere. I don’t want to be helped. I don’t want any suggestions. I want to feel better and don’t know how that can be accomplished. It’s pretty awful.
Music works somewhat. It used to work well. I started playing piano. It helps, but painting works the best. Second best actually.
AA is the best. I go in to a zoom AA meeting, listen and paint. It totally takes me away, when I really need away.
My writing is coming back. My zeal for the trail is returning.
I thank my HP for my friends. My AA friends, my few friends from my childhood, and my AT friends. You know who you are. I don’t tell you enough. Thank you. I would be alone and drunk without you. Without you and my HP. God.