Staying busy.

I don’t know what I would do with myself if I had never begun painting. This is only a sampling of what I have painted. I go through periods, I suppose we all do, where I don’t feel like doing ANYTHING. It’s like a black hole. I don’t want to see people. I don’t want to go anywhere. I don’t want to be helped. I don’t want any suggestions. I want to feel better and don’t know how that can be accomplished. It’s pretty awful.

Music works somewhat. It used to work well. I started playing piano. It helps, but painting works the best. Second best actually.

AA is the best. I go in to a zoom AA meeting, listen and paint. It totally takes me away, when I really need away.

My writing is coming back. My zeal for the trail is returning.

I thank my HP for my friends. My AA friends, my few friends from my childhood, and my AT friends. You know who you are. I don’t tell you enough. Thank you. I would be alone and drunk without you. Without you and my HP. God.

A. I.

8 thoughts on “Staying busy.

  1. I love love the paintings you’ve made so far! Especially the ones of buildings, the colors and shadows are so striking!
    I’m glad you have that sacred space for yourself. Enjoy Georgia friend!

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  2. Great update – and great that you have something like painting to take up the space in your life with your other interests. Music, reading, writing, running, hiking, biking, traveling all do it for me. Wishing you continued health and joy in your journey.

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  3. I see you jumped on the gnome train. Fun!! There’s much I could say about being alone and contentment and peace, however, I won’t. Glad your energy and zest for life are returning! Love, Lindy

    Sent from my iPhone


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