I am sick of Covid. Covid at breakfast. Covid when I shop. Covid in the news. Covid on NPR. Covid on Sports radio. Covid.
Here’s the real problem. I just turned 70. I feel much younger when my head is screwed on correctly. It’s harder to be upbeat and live the life I love, when mortality is in my face ALL THE TIME!
I don’t want to die. I thought it was because I wanted to finish the Appalachian Trail. Well, it is that, but so much more.
I would miss:
Conversation with Landi. All my AA friends. The view out my back window. Climbing into bed not alone. My girls. My girls big time. All the sports I don’t even do anymore.
Realization. It’s the thought of missing this stuff. That’s the problem. When I’m gone I won’t care. I miss from here. Not from whatever is next. Next is Peace.
Take a breath Doug. Do all you can do NOW. Getting down about what I’m going to miss is senseless. Irrational. Immature.
Senseless. Irrational. Immature. That is what I need to concentrate on. Not being those things.
I must keep my energy up at all costs. Eat right. EAT RIGHT. I do more of the other healthy stuff than I need to. EAT RIGHT.
I eat like I used to drink, sometimes. A donut used to give me a lift. Never does now. It just makes me want another one.
One donut is too many and 100 is not enough!
Today, I will push mortality away by moving in the direction of the things I love. All that stuff up there that I wrote in the beginning. I will enjoy all those things. I will have more of them all.
I will be ALL-IN…there.
Mortality will take care of itself just fine.
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You’ve accomplished a lot and more to do . Sometimes just nodding your head , saying hello to a passing stranger just might give that person a lift like a donut . Your relationship with the planet exemplifies your relationship with humanity. Without relationships what is life ?
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You’re pretty wise for a young guy, you know?
Mens sana in corpore sano
The Romans knew it thousands of years ago as you as you know it now.
Mind, body and spirit….
I’d tell you to take care of yourself but you clearly already are.
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Thanks Bobbie. Means a lot to an old jock…:)